Waking Up

November 8, 2016 4:07 AM


So many times I wake up in the middle of the night and I think I should probably get up and go to some writing. And so here we are.

My husband and I had another fight last night. But before it could escalate into a screaming match I walked out and came into my office. It seems here lately that I can’t say anything to him without him thinking I’m trying to start a fight. Think it’s his defense mechanism because he doesn’t want any confrontation so he puts all the blame on me. I’m not trying to give him excuses but this really is getting old. I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.

Putting all the blame on him but whenever I try to discuss things that have to do with the house he thinks I’m nitpicking or trying to start an argument. I don’t know anybody wants to start an argument just for arguments sake. And if there are people out like that out there, find something else to do your sanity is not even worth it.

I’ve been wanting to write some books so took some time off from school. I’m not even sure I’m going to go back. I can’t finish my degree anyhow. I have capped out of my financial aid. I have some ideas on how I can maneuver getting everything paid for finished but all that stuff takes time. I just don’t have time. I keep picking up other things you side jobs and side projects just extra stuff that I really don’t need to be picking up.

I have one that I want to write about and that is my relationship with my mom. Another book I have which is fiction, is about a woman who is very wealthy and powerful in the community, leave the secret life in her mansion. The plot is she has these relationships with men and they all seem to move into her mansion. Each one has a specific role to play. There is also a book about the adventures with my dog. But apparently someone has already come up with a children’s book with the adventures of her dog. It seems like every good idea I have someone else is already picked it up. That happens to me with inventions as well. I don’t ever have the money to spend on an invention so therefore I can’t do anything about it and that gives someone else plenty of time to come up with the same idea

I am trying out my new software with you right now. I bought a digital download of Nuance Dragon naturally speaking. I can tell I will need to go back and edit this article. I’m hoping to use this technology to. That’s why I bought it. Duh!

The only issue I’m having is that my headset is so large and the earpieces go over my ears, for listening quality, but it’s annoying I really just want a headpiece that just has a microphone on it. Off to Amazon.com I go.

See you later.


Oh P.S.  Should I give you a lesson to learn here? Some MAJOR quote? Should my writing be about what you take away from it or about what I am sharing about myself in the moment? Just curious!



Keeping UP

Hi Everyone,

I wish I could say that my new year got off to a great start, but that would not be true.  On New Year’s Eve I had to call 911 for my boss.  Two days later I was calling them for my brother-in-law.  He had a massive heart attack and even died after they got to the hospital.  If it wasn’t for his life vest from Zoll (http://lifevest.zoll.com/), he wouldn’t have made it.

I visited him everyday he was in the hospital. They put a pacemaker (Boston Scientific) inside of him.  It is the only thing keeping his heart pumping.  Without the pacemaker, his heart would only be working at 15%.

Before his heart attack, he sat at his desktop computer and played games or watched TV.  He didn’t do anything.  He ended up with diabetes and other issues.  His heart doctor finally got him a vest to wear that kept track of his heart rhythm.  Zoll vests are a great product for patients who suffer from irregular heart rhythms.  It has a built in defibrillator that may shock the person back to life.

According to their website, “The LifeVest wearable defibrillator is worn by patients at risk for sudden cardiac arrest (SCA), providing protection during their changing condition and while permanent SCA risk has not been established. The LifeVest allows a patient’s physician time to assess their long-term arrhythmic risk and make appropriate plans.”

I’m not being paid to write this post, but I will say that if it weren’t for Zoll’s life vest, Jim, would not be here today.

I’m hoping that this event will speak volumes to my husband and get him to thinking about his health, or should I say, our health.  We start our new diet tomorrow.

Another piece of interesting news, there have been a lot of people around me either dying, getting sick, having heart attacks, etc.  What’s up with that?  It’s just too close to home for me.  And you know, it all comes in threes.  Found out that my high school boyfriend was in the hospital for a heart attack as well.  Geez!  Enough already!  His advice, “stop eating fast foods”!  For real, people.  Eat organic!  Don’t eat sugar!

That’s another post for another time.  Be brave my friends and eat healthy.