As you know, I am without a job. I have been contemplating my future and what I should do. Which is usually the coarse one takes in such a situation. My husband is feeling the stress of the bills piling up. We have two car payments. Which means we pay insurance for two cars that are financed, meaning full coverage in insurance. Of course, like most middle income households, we have credit card debt. It’s driving my husband bonkers and rightly so. It goes without saying, I need to pitch in. Here are my current options and I want your advice.

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The week before I was let go from my last position, the thought about losing my job and going into photography crossed my mind. I have struggled with knowing whether or not the “universe” is trying to lead me into the direction of photography. I used to be in photography. It scares me really.

I did convince my husband to let me take this travel photography course for about $29 a month. I’m in the middle of taking it now. I also enjoy writing. But something inside me has died or is dying. I feel like all the passion and excitement of the things I once loved is flickering into the smallest of flames, right before the light is gone, you know.

I want to listen to the nudge from the universe and see where the photo path will take me. I have only donated three pictures to charity to sell for a total of about $200. I have a website and haven’t sold any there either. I feel like there’s a wall stopping the money from flowing into my life. I deserve this, damn it! What do I do? Visit my photography website by clicking on the My Gallery button at

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Mmm, writing! It can be an absolute joy or a thorn in the side. I want to write all the time. I have started many books and they are still waiting to be finished. I believe I can be a great writer, even a novelist.

I have two books presently which I am debating on finishing. One book is about a woman from time past who is rich and mysterious. She lives in a 12 room mansion. There is always excitement there and men come and go. She is not a “lady of the night” or anything like that. I don’t want to give away too much information about it.

The other book has a religious connotation. I write about the power of the Great I Am and how it, or He, relates to us all. He is the Father of all creation. We were created in His (or their, Gen. 1:26) image, after their likeness.

Now, I am a spiritual person, not a religious one. I know this book would bring about a great amount of ridicule and sarcasm. I’m fine with that. But, it’s a book, I believe, we all need right now, in this moment of time. I feel there is a war going on in the spirit realm; because, “we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places” (Eph.  6:12).

So, which do you think I should work on? I’m leaving it up to the universe to decide. That’s you, my friends.

All the best,


KJV Gen 1:26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.

KJV Eph 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.


Some Other Time Then

Mountain RangeIt’s Friday, Nov. 10, 2017. I know you know that. The reason for my reference to the date, or more specifically, day of the week is that on Monday I was released from my new position as insurance sales agent. It all started in September.

I interviewed September 7th and was offered a position as insurance agent two days later. I was drawn to the company because of their training program. I was asked to come to the office for a morning meeting at least once a week. I suppose it was to re-insure them of my interest in the position. So, every Tuesday or Thursday I happily dressed the part and went to the meeting. I didn’t get paid for my time and I wasn’t official until I passed a 215 license state exam. I paid for the classes and the test. If I pass the state exam, the company will reimburse me.

On October 9th, I passed my state exam and was reimbursed the fees for my training and license. I went out into the field with an assigned mentor. I young woman, married with two small children. I spent at least eight hours a day with her, sometimes less. I didn’t make any money that week. The following week, I spent four days at the corporate headquarters.  We spent our time training on how to be an insurance sales person and telemarketing.

I would like to stay positive on this subject but quite frankly you need to know things were not always positive.

Sales, really!

I have never seen myself as a sales agent of any kind. I was never good at Avon, Mary Kay, or any of the other “home party” companies. I would rather people come to me to by my product. I didn’t want to go to them and sell them my product, or me. Because really, in sales, you are ultimately selling yourself first.

That being said, I was desperate for a job. I had been applying for jobs for what seems like forever. I remember my boss saying, “People go into sales as a last ditch effort to make money”.  Trust me, there is money to be made in sales, no matter who you work for. And, this, was my last ditch effort. I thought too, “if this doesn’t work out I’ll go back into photography”. It didn’t work out. I was let go after two weeks back from agent training. No reason was given. No discussion was wanted. I don’t know what I did or said that made my boss want to part ways. I made goals for myself. I had plans. So, some other time then?

Break Time is Over.

I think I need a break – a break from my life. I’ll be 56 years old a week from today. I’m not happy about it. It is what it is, as they say. But seriously, there is just so much more to life than playing house or working a 9 to 5. I think I might work on my books and photography. Maybe I’ll do some travelling. I need – an adventure. I have to decide soon.

Being let go from my job was devastating. I take it very hard and find it difficult to just pop back into society, or everyday life. Yes, I cried. I got angry. Even my husband got angry at my boss.

I Get To Choose My Life.

I was listening to a podcast recently and the woman said, “Everyone has a plan for my life and how it should look, [from my kids, husband, boss, family, friends]. But, I am the one who gets to choose my life”. I love that statement. She’s right. I need to tell everyone around me, “I get to choose my life. Just because you want to sit around here not experiencing life, doesn’t mean I have to”.

I feel like I am wasting away here. There is so much more outside of me to experience and I want to do that before I leave this planet.

There’s just one problem. I don’t like doing things by myself. It’s also not safe to go travelling by yourself. You don’t know how many times I have wanted to get into my car and just take off up north. I think I can go as far as half way on my gas gauge. You know, like if there’s a half a tank, I’ll just drive for as far as a quarter tank will take me. Then, I’ll have enough gas to turn around and come back home.

I know my blogs are always short, but I am determined to make them better. I will be doing some updates to the look and theme of my blog. I will be adding new photos and links. Stay tuned!





Business Started. Now What? Raise Money!

I became a patent pending inventor in December 2016. I blush. I am proud of this accomplishment. It’s the first invention I prayed for and had the money to invest in. It all came together. So I thought!

My dream of becoming a successful entrepreneur and inventor has come to a screeching halt. The smoke has not settled yet. That’s how recent it has happened.

I am out of funds. Now, mind you I have a part-time job at a local hobby store. However, it only pays for my credit cards and car payment. I usually do not have any money left over. If I do have money left over it is because I put in more hours than normal. Of course, that’s if they did not cut my hours for the week. If that happens, I don’t have money and have to rely on my husband to pay my bills. I really don’t care to do that.

I did like most people who want to raise money, I started a Kickstarter campaign and a Fundme campaign. I had no results. Not only did I not get any supporters from those campaigns but I lack the support, financially and emotionally I guess, from my family or friends. Not even my husband will invest in my invention.

Everyone loves my invention when they see it in action. To look at it you really can’t tell what it is or what it does. So I need a whiteboard explainer video right? That took me to a website called At this website you can hire and or pay for services at a cost of five dollars and up. It’s a great way for business startups to get some services done.

During my six months of membership at, I encountered some shady characters. I encountered people who did not know what they were doing. I also found a few diamonds. I purchased a logo for my parent company Vengeance Innovations and Designs LLC from one talented artist. I use it on my business cards.

I still have not received a whiteboard explainer video because when I tried to change my password I was locked out of my account. After what seemed like 1 million emails back and forth to their support department, I gave up on the account. I no longer use it.

That all being said, tax season came around in 2017. My husband and I split any tax return we may happen to get. So I got around $1200 and invested all of it into starting my business as Vengeance Innovations and Designs LLC dba The Wonder Sleeve. I used all of that money to pay for business licenses for the state and the city and the county. I also bought more supplies to make more sleeves.

That was back in March and April of this year, 2017. Because of some added stress of health issues I encountered this year in May it put a toll on my paycheck. I had to rely on my husband again to pay my bills.

I’m telling you all of this because I am looking for an investor. I know I have a good product. With the right investor, I know it would be a great success. I need help and I need someone to believe in me and my product.

All the best,


Blood Type O – Rh Negative

We have all seen the movies, right? Well, this blog is not about the movies. Sorry!

It is, however, about one of the most interesting finds in my lifetime.  Are you ready to hear about something so far out there that you will be ready to find out about your own existence?

Back story – my mother has always said that we have African-American blood in our bodies. She bases this “find” on the fact that we have curly hair. Now our hair is not kinky curly like the African-American hair. It is curly. The second thing that she proclaimed throughout my life is that we have Cherokee Indian in our family line.

You know how we are as children, we want to prove our parents wrong as much as possible. That is why, in the fall of 2016, I purchased the ancestry DNA kit from for $99. For disclaimer purposes, has not paid me nor am I endorsing this product for them.

I was really excited to find out what my DNA would show.

The next thing is, on July 22, 2016 on the history channel Ancient Aliens aired episode 10 titled “The Prototypes”.

My brother-in-law lives with us and I was walking by his room when I overheard this episode on his TV. They were talking about the Rh factor in blood types. Well, that peaked my interest, so I asked him to record that episode. I watched it later that evening with my husband.

According to this segment, episode 10, in the last 15 or 20 minutes of the show, the Rh negative factor did not show up until the mid-1500s. They go on to say 85% of the population are Rh positive. The other 15% are the rare – Rh negative factor. Blood types are A, AB, B, and O. I am blood type O. I am also Rh negative. I did not know my blood type until recently when I gave blood at a mobile blood bank.

The reason I know I am Rh negative is when I gave birth to my son they told me they would have to give me an injection because I am Rh negative. According to the American Pregnancy website, a mother is given “[a]n injection of Rh immunoglobulin (RhIg),” which “can prevent sensitization of a Rh-negative mother” .  That’s why I had to have the injection after I gave birth to my son and that was in 1984.

The website continues,

  • “If the baby is born with Rh-positive blood, the mother should be given another dose of RhIg to prevent her from making antibodies to the Rh-positive cells she may have received from their baby before and during delivery.”

You can read more about the Rh factor by clicking here.

If you are Rh negative blood type, you cannot receive a blood transfusion from any other blood type. It also means that you carry the Rhesus monkey protein in your blood cells. You can read more about the Rh negative factor at the Rh negative registry website by clicking here.  This website also states “when an Rh- Woman becomes pregnant with an Rh+ baby, she will naturally produce antibodies that seek out to find and destroy the foreign body; their unborn baby”.

It is however why blood tests were mandatory when people got married. The father of my son and I both had to have blood tests prior to getting married in 1984.

Now, back to the Ancient Aliens episode. The question is where did the Rh negative factor come from. Ancient Aliens stated it could come from extraterrestrial beings. But, you know how they put the spin on things. I am neither condoning nor condemning the TV show. It gives way to much thought and contemplation.

Also, according to Ancient Aliens the majority of Rh negative factor blood types are concentrated in Europe. Now, this gets interesting because according to my ancestry DNA, I am 93% Great Britain/Europe. Furthermore, I have no African-American DNA, nor do I have any American Indian, in my DNA. As a matter of fact, I do not have any American DNA. It is all from Europe.

Recently, I have been making new friends, new business associates etc. I have found at least one of them is also type O blood and is Rh negative. I find this curious.

If we, Rh negative factor beings, are from another alien life form, are we now starting to gather unknowingly, but by some extraterrestrial calling, if you will?

Is it time?

Let’s go home!

Rewards at Christmas?


December 23, 2016

Merry Christmas everybody!

Usually, this time of year, families and friends are gathering together to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. Or, if you’re not religious, you might be participating in the Santa Claus idealism of the season. In any case, it’s a time of giving, forgiving and spending time with family and friends. But, is spending time with family becoming a real bother to some?

Recently, my son and his girlfriend were supposed to come over for a visit. This visit started out as a project to strip the inside of our boat to prepare it for refurbishing. The other guy, in charge of this project, couldn’t come on this day. So, my son decided that it was okay. They, he, and his girlfriend, would still come over and just spend the day with us. I was thrilled, of course. A few days before this, he had texted me that they would be over about 11 AM or 12 PM. I hopefully and jokingly said “well, 11 AM would be better”, trying to squeeze more time with him. He explained that he and his girlfriend always get up at the same time during the week. So, getting up on Sunday morning would not be an issue and he might could get here at 11 o’clock. That was fine. I know it’s a long drive and sleeping in on Sundays, your only day off, is taxing.

So, the day came and at 9:30 in the morning, I received a phone call from him. He said he just got up and they would not be here until about 1 PM. Obviously, I was disappointed because it only gave us a couple of hours to spend together. And I know that his girlfriend does not like being around us for too long. But, we have a pool and live on a canal that leads out into a lake. We don’t have our boat ready for the water but we could fish off the dock. There was also a gun show just down the road at the Civic Center and I thought we could go down there. My son loves sushi and there is a restaurant nearby that I wanted to take him to.

Now, my thinking is if you know you’re getting up early to drive an hour to an hour and a half somewhere to spend the day with your mom or dad or whomever your loved one is, a person that you don’t see regularly like every day, then wouldn’t you make sure that you are to bed early that night before?

Remember, he’s the one that said they would come over and spend the day with us anyways even if they were not doing the boat project. Obviously, I was disappointed when he said that they weren’t going to be able to come until 1 o’clock in the afternoon. That was only going to give us a couple of hours to spend together. So, I started to say “well don’t worry about it I know it’s a long drive and a couple of hours…”. At this point, he started shouting at me. He was screaming about how this is the only day he has off and blah blah blah. Then he hung up on me. I tried calling him back and he didn’t answer. I gave it a little while, texted him and nothing. I did leave a voicemail which I said to him “you are not going to talk to me like that. I was not pissed off. I was only trying to give you a way out. I know it’s a long drive to spend only a couple of hours with us and then to turn around and go back home on a long drive.” After a while, when I texted him I told him the same thing. But he did not respond to anything I tried to communicate.

Today is the 23rd of December. Two days before Christmas. On the 21st in the evening he texted me and said he loves me and he apologized for the phone conversation. They also wanted to know if we want to come over and exchange gifts. So, we are going over there on Christmas day after we leave my mom’s. By the way, I had people praying about this.

Now, I don’t know if any of you have these sorts of things happen right before Christmas, or even on Christmas Day, but I can tell you this for sure, I was adamant about not giving any Christmas gifts to him or his girlfriend. I saw it as rewarding bad behavior. And I was not about to do that. You can disagree with me, of course. I know it’s family time and Christmas time. But no one has the right to talk to their mom like that. I don’t treat my mom like that and we have had arguments and fights trust me we have had them. But, we always come back together. We talk it out or apologize so we can get our relationship back on track.

The good news out of all of this is that my son called me; well, he didn’t even call, he texted his apology. Maybe that’s why families just don’t get together, because they can Facebook all the time or text all the time. One other thing I did not mention yet is that he and his girlfriend have decided that they were not going to go visit family anymore on the holidays. Again, my thinking is ‘you spend every moment of every day, 365 days a year, with this one person. How often do you see the rest of your family? So, now you’re going to take away holidays from your family? Unbelievable!!! I guess it is the millennial frame of mind.

So, I leave you today with this, “do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” Luke 6:31. If we want respect from others then we also need to respect them. If we want others to love us we should love them. The Bible also says to forgive others seven-time 70. And that’s a lot of forgiving.

I hope and pray that you all have a great and safe holiday season. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, and Happy New Year! God bless you and God bless America.


Hair Today.

Getting my hair done today at Lauren Ray Salon. By Erin.  Another customer came in for a haircut and now I’m just sitting here with chemicals in my hair. I know I shouldn’t complain. But whatever. At least I can write a new blog post.

I always wait four to six months before getting a haircut and color. There’s usually two to three inches of new growth. Hate it. Then it costs me over $140 to get it done. 


Husband’s company Christmas party tonight. Got nails done yesterday. I didn’t buy anything new to wear, but do need to get new makeup. I really don’t want to go. I’m so self conscious about my weight. I hate to go to events like this. Do you hear me screaming? 😰

The things we do for our husbands. 

See ya later.


Elections 2016- my thoughts

November 8, 2016 10:38 AM

Lucky you, this makes three today.

Today is election day 2016. Candidates on the ballot are Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton. Fox News banner reads Trump’s potential role as Republican power broker with Charles Krauthammer. Scenes of the Clintons making their votes today. Everyone is awaiting Donald Trump to cast his ballot today.

I am a late bloomer when it comes to voting. I did not start voting until about eight years ago when I met and married my husband and he is very knowledgeable of and into politics. I pretty much voted what he voted. I didn’t have any knowledge of Council members, laws, or issues at hand. Eight years later however I don’t know a whole lot but I know more than then.

That being said, I don’t really get why a country who hasn’t really made any progress in the last eight years, has incurred a tremendous debt, would consider another four years with a woman who apparently is above the law. Anyone coming against her or her family wind up dead. And I don’t know why the news media doesn’t report that. Well I guess I do and that’s because the media is owned or operated by the government. So it would only make sense that they would give us the information they think will keep us at peace.

Now I don’t think Donald Trump is not guilty of many things least of all sexual harassment. I’m sure he could pay a lot of money to get out of some type of sexual harassment lawsuit. With that said I think he is a good candidate because of his business background. While the other leaders are all politically minded, they have no business sense. You have to run the, country like a business. When people get into a governmental office for political gain they’re looking for wealth and fame. They really have no intention, as the Clintons, in running this country for the people.

Now of course this is all my opinion and I’m sure you have yours. Fox News is running another headline “for the first time since 1972 both major party candidates will watch election unfold in New York City the Clintons on Manhattan’s West side and Trump at Hilton Hotel in midtown”. Like a lot of people I am watching Fox news report of the elections.

I just feel that we need to get the Obama and Clinton rain out of our government. I believe that the Clintons are radicals within our own country, and I know that’s a strong word, and I’m sure someone’s got to say something about it. They do not have the foundation of America in their hearts. They feel like ‘can everybody just get along’. And yes we should all seek peace, but not at the expense of the foundation, the very foundation that this country was founded on by our forefathers. No one should come against what America was built on. That includes God’s word, the Bible.

If anyone comes into this country seeking harm and does not seek assimilation with in our law structure and government, in my opinion, they should just leave and go back to their home country. We do not go into their countries and try and change it. If we were to do so, what do you think would happen to us? We probably would not be heard of again.

Again, just my opinions.

See you later,



Waking Up

November 8, 2016 4:07 AM


So many times I wake up in the middle of the night and I think I should probably get up and go to some writing. And so here we are.

My husband and I had another fight last night. But before it could escalate into a screaming match I walked out and came into my office. It seems here lately that I can’t say anything to him without him thinking I’m trying to start a fight. Think it’s his defense mechanism because he doesn’t want any confrontation so he puts all the blame on me. I’m not trying to give him excuses but this really is getting old. I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.

Putting all the blame on him but whenever I try to discuss things that have to do with the house he thinks I’m nitpicking or trying to start an argument. I don’t know anybody wants to start an argument just for arguments sake. And if there are people out like that out there, find something else to do your sanity is not even worth it.

I’ve been wanting to write some books so took some time off from school. I’m not even sure I’m going to go back. I can’t finish my degree anyhow. I have capped out of my financial aid. I have some ideas on how I can maneuver getting everything paid for finished but all that stuff takes time. I just don’t have time. I keep picking up other things you side jobs and side projects just extra stuff that I really don’t need to be picking up.

I have one that I want to write about and that is my relationship with my mom. Another book I have which is fiction, is about a woman who is very wealthy and powerful in the community, leave the secret life in her mansion. The plot is she has these relationships with men and they all seem to move into her mansion. Each one has a specific role to play. There is also a book about the adventures with my dog. But apparently someone has already come up with a children’s book with the adventures of her dog. It seems like every good idea I have someone else is already picked it up. That happens to me with inventions as well. I don’t ever have the money to spend on an invention so therefore I can’t do anything about it and that gives someone else plenty of time to come up with the same idea

I am trying out my new software with you right now. I bought a digital download of Nuance Dragon naturally speaking. I can tell I will need to go back and edit this article. I’m hoping to use this technology to. That’s why I bought it. Duh!

The only issue I’m having is that my headset is so large and the earpieces go over my ears, for listening quality, but it’s annoying I really just want a headpiece that just has a microphone on it. Off to I go.

See you later.


Oh P.S.  Should I give you a lesson to learn here? Some MAJOR quote? Should my writing be about what you take away from it or about what I am sharing about myself in the moment? Just curious!


The Holidays ar’a Comin’

I’M NOT READY!!! Are you?

I was doing some housecleaning, not true. I was doing some research, that’s true. I’ve been trying to work out this plan of starting my own designing business ORrrr writing some books – I keep putting off.

We just moved to our retirement home in Lake County, FL. It’s our dream home. We have 2000 square feet of space. The last house was 1200 sq. ft. We have a screened in pool now. The deep end is nine feet down. There’s the dock, empty. Our boat hasn’t made it here yet. There’s a gazebo and a garden, already plotted out, next to it.

The temperature hit 55 degrees (F) last night. Halloween is almost here. Boxes are still full. Holiday boxes and totes haven’t made it here. We have two more storage units to move over, but we’re already running out of room at the new house. My studio could use some shelving and I have an idea for that. I think it’s the least expensive method of storage.

With all the holiday stuff still in storage, I either have to improvise or shop for new stuff. I haven’t had the time to even think much about it, unless I’m at work where we sell holiday decor.  Anyway, I’ve bought some things, little things to decorate with, but it’s not much at all.

I need to get in gear and get started. We have a Holiday Feast & Gathering Party in November. I need a menu, decorations, plates/flatware, etc…  I still have to get the boxes empty that are in the house. Or, at least, I should move them to the garage.

I took time off school to “find myself”, change my image, find my brand and become it. Transforming myself into the person, or image, I have wanted for a while now. I have to do it now. It’s my shot. It’s my time.

See you in the stars!